Greetings people of 2010
i went on an intergalactic tour for the past 3 months. sorry, there was no signal out there.
went to visit many places and met many people(beings). ho ho ho, are they interesting.
i feel like writing another essay now about my experiences but I can't because I'm late for school. o wells, some other time.
hohoho
11:03 AM 
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I want to explore the possibilities of being human, so I became a critical and creative thinker.
I believe in believing that we survive, is what make us, survive.
I believe things are what you make them to be. Love, loyalty, exist when you care for them to exist. Desires and faith give birth to abilities.
My hardest hardship is going for what I know and others don't. I don't get much encouragement from people.
I know God intended for man to pursue answers because he made them all around us and mute.
I am young, I am unconventional, I am a contemplator; the one who ponders, watches, and do.
I know more than I tell, because I'm
- Newell
A few life-changing events at my childhood led me to care about this universe, my life, and both its entirety and its infinite information.
Besides, obviously, analyzing all that had happened, I seek to let the unknown, the unconvincing, the undesired happen anyway. I got a compelling hunger for answers about things I've interest myself in and, too, things I haven't interest myself, so self awareness plays a big factor in it. I do that because I KNOW everything in the world plays a role in determining the quality of life. I believe I can stir my interest in anything because of the way I care how it impacts people such as myself. I do not allow in my mind anything lesser than being completely self-honest; if I screwed up: like it or not accept it no matter how it hurts. I have to keep my focus, stay with my objectives. I used to be very in control of my mind and character; not to be impatient, not to be lazy, no problems in dealing with difficult people and had a high self esteem. But recently I find myself wanting only to take a break, be more spontaneous and not living so uptight. I want to feel more relaxed. I even feel like retiring from who I am. It just happened in a way too advanced for me and thanks to it it reminds me of how inadequate I still am despite all the countless extra miles I've given. In a way I feel depressed, like I had enough, like why I couldn't do better. I experience way too much stress from my current life than I should (or could control), as my adulthood is approaching and the face of working life in Singapore appears bigger. I fear of how to handle my own future when I have overwhelming feelings of retirement from my very life. Something happened to me while I was asleep, and I hope to have a clue what it is. I guess this is the part of the story when I fall from my peak into the deepest pit I've ever face. And right now I'm just hoping I have some of the vigor the past me used to have, and I am trying hard psyching or motivating myself. When it works I am optimistic. When it doesn't I am pessimistic, and let's not forget that I have no clue how to get my support from people 'cos I didn't grew up in them.
PS: I am a shapeshifter of multiple aspects.
Winner of best boring and unimportant essay goes to
- Newell
5:45 AM
Saturday, December 5, 2009
so i’m not going to care how it is expressed, but i love what i do with words and English. “i aren’a into ideligious submit whenith ties waeth omiuniversal *prospecrity” is a sentence i came up with today, to say in my way that: “I am not into idealistic-cum-religious life-commitments when its welfare still ties with that by observing our vast universe.” as a shout out to my church who wants me to minimize to their level, how one sided the relationship, when they can’t be on board with me for a second. no art, no science, but always about defeating humanism without
but just been blogging at a new avenue: onenewell.tumblr.com
onenewell.tumblr.com is mainly for shorter and pics posts
however once there's a long post i'd write it here still.
i have kind of liked tumblr more. it's just better than here.
enough of the updates, visit or not my tumblr stays cool.
but now, here's a post for frequent readers:
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arrt is without boundaries, & what u can get away with when you cheatit has been ridiculed, it has been condemned. but enough persistence makes the idea of a special one communicated. the brain has wires the nature of veg roots, contrary to calculable score of logic in computers. the brain is artism restrained to boxed idea of money-productive lifestyle, & socially encouraged to forget.(what?) ART. -precisely
*(prospect + prosperity)
intelligence contemplating the idea of life in higher intelligence. without initiative to grasp the never-before gotten, but grasping only personally impactful things which they see another have whilst they don’t. that unawared subjective perspective right there is what i call humanism deletion fail. where is your growth if you don’t compare to the universe?
12:19 AM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
5:20 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009
Then i find myself clicking to the compose page and start typing..
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it's not like i havent any topics to talk about, i do. but im just being procrastinating.. and all's that on my mind now is playing oblivion, or any other computer games. =x
anyhow, i think i should get started.
First thing! THE RESULTS FOR ANTM!!!!
GAAAA, I was wrong! the order wasn't too far off though. D;
This is the actual results:
1st) Nicole (Martial artist-like + modelly)
2) Laura (Graceful pix + great body elongation)
3) Brittanny (Sexy pix but lack interpersonal skills)
4) Erin (looks like a model but lack interpersonal skills)
5) Jennifer (shows good craziness of a martial artist)
6) Rae (gives good face but weak body angles)
7) Sundai (no versatility)
Eli.) Kara (shows no passion and confidence in pix)
if you think about it, my judgement of the girls individually wasn't too far off O:
this is what the gift of discernment can do...!
mood update: im lazy to continue lol. till later man.
by the way, newest single (LG Phone promo) from SNSD!
this song is now stuck in my head.
The editor for the MV sucks. too many freaking fast cuts to fully let out the charm in each scene.
"Chocolate Love"
oh, group f(X) have their own version of "Chocolate Love" too, how bizarre.
PS: if you dislike kpop, why don't you give this genre more time to develop its beauty and transcend it to song? (:
1:57 PM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
later gonna do research for my boss' webbie.
in the midst of my no brainer work, dying to have something to think about, I suddenly thought of this:
Who but those you trust to have a greater knowledge would you expect the answers from?
Yet when time testifies against these people of their lack of exposure and understanding, along with bad experiences of them acting like they know it all, where a few weeks later they say from their very own mouths that they were ignorant, brings you to the question of how much can you actually trust that they have the answers?
The main race was not meant to be just about gathering of information or rewards, but also gaining in awareness; which is the starting point to cultivate values like appreciation and thanksgiving and honour. With awareness and remembrance one understands better the moral of love and the meaning of giving from the heart. With great awareness and great remembrance one understands the significance in the moral of love and the meaning and importance of giving from the heart. When you finally reach the point whereby you start seeing meaning = important, and/or; importance = meaningful, you know you are ready to bless people around, and situation around in great measures. Because only when you are aware and remembering, that you actually not become obligated to do multiple things selflessly. You are conscious of what you're doing, you are logical and visionary, but even greater you are living a decision that you made - your purpose in life. It is in your will, pure and precious, most of all, pleasing.
Compassion is not true unless you're in awareness of something great and you remember why everybody in the world needs it. Otherwise the compassion was just a command of opposed human-selfishness/ sinful-nature.
My Random Messages of Relevance :S
Philosophy, Science and the Arts increases awareness. Which is why they are my favourite topics. But for a starter to understand people would be an introduction to Psychology.
Initiate daily to question yourself deep of your your actions, and adjust your intentions/ goals to the right ones/ what inspired you to want.
(A) Awareness of significance of awareness can only be attained by questioning deep and questioning wide. And if you question the breath -distance/the long run- you'll find the significance of (A). (like a scientific three-way formula)
Never allow a subconscious thought of "for me, my current level of awareness is enough", or "i know enough about somebody" to exist and swim in your head. Always stand back and ponder for all possibilities.
OK BACK TO WORK!
11:28 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
And now it is.
-couldn't sleep; something about the darkness of my room and the desperation of sunlight piercing through the clouds and into my room, comforts me.
7:36 AM
