ha.
neways i watched the channelu korean ghost moive called Voice (Letter) just now and it was damn good. the show is true in its horror and despair, and it's all about the game relationship we all humans must play. the show talked about a love 'rectangle' between 3 lesbians and a good (straight?) girlfriend. one of them was a music teacher. it all took place in a highschool, which was way cooler than damai sec or TP. ha. it's even nicer than RP. including the uniforms and facilities. man, when will singapore have heavenly schools like this existing?
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neways back abt the movie, it reflects on an issue which i, for long, have also suspected a truth that was undiscovered and hidden from our daily consciousness. the conscience that was blocked out by desires. it's shows the human struggle of being either one of the two we can choose to be.
1)the being of love, the being to have a good relationship with others, the holy self.
or
2)the being of selfishness, the one we seek power to manipulate ppl and things to get what we want, the impatient, greediness of insecurity to fill the temporal period of our life. aka, the mortal life.
the more stories i watch that talked about relationships, the more similarities i see in them. and that that was portrayed in the movies reflects the reality of mankind. i geniuniely feel that we humans is made up of 2 different selfs. and each one of us has had the battle in ourselves to be the self we want to choose to be. but by the way i see humans, i see that most of us has chosen to give up the battle to be what the self our souls wants to be - that is the 1st kind i mentioned. because we dont have the strenght. in quietness, we wept in the darkest corners of our heart, unknown to friends, familes, and sometimes even we ourselves didnt take notice.
i really feel the existence of a God-shape void in all of our hearts. there is this restless soul we have, always searching to fill up that void. there is this yearning in our souls to want to go back to our hero's presence. just a note that even if i wasnt a christian, that statement i made still retains its same essence and feeling in my heart if i havent turned to be a believer.
i feel there is this damned war that we are all doomed to be in. it's just so hard to have that energy to substain our souls to find that Light. i feel that we are all weak beings, a one-man army war with the Distance of the two Worlds. it doesnt count even if you have friends or not.. its no use. it's a common war all of us are put in different locations and each of us have a different direction and path to go..
we are exhausted beings with exhausted souls, old, dirty, faint, broken, torn apart to many pieces - like a decomposing body. but i feel that our souls all looks to the same direction - heavenward. and we tried many attempts and methods to reach back there. perhaps is to God.
back to that one true relationship we once had.
this is when i see the things that the Bible mentioned kicking in. it was said that all humans was created to worship and have a relationship with God. none of us were a mistake, and all of us were planned and given life to exist to do a contribution on earth. but all of us dont have the strength we originally have before our relationship was broken with God. it's is because of the sinful nature we inherited from adam and eve, our fore father and mother. They didnt keep the strength to hold on to the relationship with God so that has been passed down to their decendents. things we did which we dont really want to do on earth, our hearts sunk into guilt, shame and despair. as children of God, yet weak for we've sinned and havent seek the help from the Saviour Jesus Christ. in name of love, whose life was given to man to die for our sins as a ransom and whose blood cleanses the soul so that all who believed follows Jesus who sets the Right path for us so that we can be redeemed. it is The Answer to all your woes and cries. the soul first needs the forgiveness of a saviour, before it can have strength to follow, and to be nurtured victorious in many ways bringing down walls of the enemy. and why would ever a soul turned to be so prosperous is because God loves man and wants to give gifts to him, why all of us has a unique strength in life. the bible says that once the heart believes that Jesus died for them, and he is the bridge to God, the old has gone and the new has come. one is born again in Christ with a renewed soul. healed and cleansed and found the Right path. there, the purpose of man is dugged out from the depths of the heart into light, and a life on earth would finally be fufilling.
this would be my conviction. it's ok if you dont believe it now though..
to be honest, i'm not confidient with my words and english.. although i am worried that what i've said would be interpreted wrongly, i pray that it wouldn't. and i hope that something did struck you, if you are not yet a believer of jesus christ.
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