my thoughts..
not my feelings... from now on.
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Jen, my unit leader in my church actually revealed to me certain issues about my life and character that are so true yet i never manage to notice.
i was pouring out to her about my dissatisfactions, feelings toward, and opinions about the people in church. it was a long conv on msn, but then laterward she thanked me for being truthful and choosing to open up my geniune feelings to her. and after a few rounds of debate, she wanted to offer me few of her findings in regards to a trend that i have when i give my opinions.
they are:
most of the things i said, are centered around my feelings.
and
i choose to let my feelings take over my mind, and let my feelings do the decision making.
and
feelings come and go. and i have let feelings come and fill my heart, till so much that it choked my heart up. and in the end, where's the clarity?
and
i feel more than i think.
and so i thought, wow, she might be right. these might be the reasons to a certain change that I spotted in myself and was frustrated with..
it's true to why am i always so unclear.
and why things'd never work out..
She asked me am i able to tell her how one particular day was quickly.
and the truth is, i couldnt.
i feel that i could remember... but then i couldnt.
and she proved her point that my feelings choked my heart.
She said its not that i dont think. i do think, but i feel more than i think, and i let what i feel overrule what i think and how i think. so i actually killed my own logic.
so i asked what should i do?
she replied, "write down your thoughts."
for writing makes a man precise.
she repeated, "write down your thoughts NOT feelings.."
and then lastly she emphasised that, the Devil loves to toy with our feelings.. and when we give in to how we feel instead of doing what was told in the bible, sooner or later the Devil will mess our life up with our feelings, and thus leads to backsliding, or falling away from the Faith. People who fall into this trap will grow more self-centered instead of others-centered, and if many people falls into this state the church will grow disunited and will easily fall apart eventually, because no church can stand and honour God when its people is not united. My God emphasised all over the bible that without unity, nothing can be done. People with people, and people with God alike.
Even Jesus himself as God prayed to the Father in heaven daily before he starts his day ministering and serving to people.
newell live by your thoughts now..
3:37 AM 
