Of course I understand loss.
From all directions of me I had lost.
Look at me, oh what do I have?
And to all the directions around me I yeild nothing.
So of course I understand loss.
I had a surrounding of void,
A clothing of none
A nakedness of absol
The eyes of my body
Are uncovered to see
The many unseen by many
To the fullest I can.
Things that are interesting
But too, things that are cruel.
Things really beyond the tongue
And those dark beyond night's darkness...
You know what's a silent scream?
And now at this point of melancholy
In this gloom no one else could be your audience
But only someone divine, special, unique...
...you wished
3:35 AM 
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Believe, he has life
Believe in him
Oh believe!
Time to be true to yourself
Look through your eyes
Look into his eyes
Oh perceive!
Read him,
As he reads you
Lean forward, let you two have contact
Forehead to forehead, now two selves fuse to one
Oh harmony!
The two spirits of one found the temple in the dark forest
Together you see the problem
But soon comes forth
The monster of truth
Trying to free himself from
The envelops of your transiency
But you know something now
Open your eyes to escape
Oh sight!
See.
My child, you just let the mirror healed you
By giving it
You, and your reflection.
And then let the Cavalry choir sing.
3:19 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008
"Conceive,
Believe,
Achieve."
"Anything's possible.
Keep Thinking."
"If you don't work, you'll just gonna get lost in your imagination."
1:02 AM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Happy Birthday Ahbe!! XD
we celebrated for her till 4am. sials. woots.
then she sent this 5-7 page long of sms to everyone of us awww..
thankyuu..! =D
neways check out one of The Onion's funny videos I found.
check this out:
[Anonymous Hero Donates Hospital 200 Human Kidneys]
DAMN GOOD ACTORS AND EVERYTHING!
AHH! I wanna hire them for my future productions. HAHA. check out their other videos too, just type in The Onion.
on second thought, I decided to just showcase two more of their videos HAHA cos it's damn humourous! Watch it as if you're watching real news..!
[Gays Too Precious To Risk In Combat]
[Multiple Stab Wounds May Be Harmful To Monkeys]
hope ppl agrees with me too that it's funney.
NEXT UP. Young Hunk Sprained Right Ankle.
I sprained my right ankle today and it sucks cos i've to limp all the time losing all the glamness.
5:22 AM
Friday, November 21, 2008
2:37 AM
Swimming around in milk
With a black empty vision
What do I want to do?
Imagining a sky of beautiful cosmos
I'm looking at what inspired me to live on.
Yet what do I do from now on?
It was only an imagination.
The reality is a space and time of black or white,
As I turned my eyes away from fantasy.
Time stopped.
Space ceased its existence.
I am standing in the center of the universe's empty space.
Not on any ground. Nor are there any walls or ceilings.
What should I do?
I feel that even if I scream, sound won't happen here.
It had always been my fear at young to be alone in the universe.
Why has that fear revived itself at this time of my life, now?
I can't cry in here.
Emotions had been taken to somewhere else, but not in here now.
I don't feel in peace.
I don't feel in security.
I feel in restlessness.
I feel in uncertainty.
"What is this?" My subconsciousness asked.
"I feel that this is my soul..." ...I answered to myself...
2:17 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
But the real beauty itself is inside for his own eyes to see.
The real artists are not insecure, they capture pictures but to share their expression.
~ piece inspired by the show America's Next Top Model.
4:54 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
and the title: The Great Delusion.
4:33 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
1:47 AM
so what's my objective for today's post? well, i hope i find one soon. Lo and behold, I happen to see this sentence on my cousin's msn nick. He says: at least now I know something I didn't thought I didn't knew then.
meanwhile i'll just share smth.
I came across a sentence that says, "I always try to enjoy life to the most." and as I was reading it, the word "enjoy" strucked me as I thought to myself, shouldn't it be "live"?
as was thinking how true that statement is about me, then something strucked me again, about the difference between those two words.
Enjoy. And, Live.
"why didn't the person use 'live' instead of 'enjoy'?", I wondered.
and so the meanings of those two words flowed into my mind. I felt revelationized.
-If one says he wants to enjoy his life to the most means that he is seeking for pleasure, and probably laid-backness of his soul wouldn't be something he will be bothered of.
-But if one says he wants to LIVE his life to the most, it means something else. more than just enjoyment in life but it's also about giving all he could do as a commitment, willingly submitting himself to a greater cause.
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so it came down to this: which one am I?
well which one do you guys think?
I will blame no one who thinks that I'm trying to enjoy my life.
Cos I think it's true, now that there's a separating of the mixture of those two words. I guess what I thought of how I live my life was trying to live it to the fullest. Which actually the word "fullest" can be broken down into two different words which are "enjoyment" and "living". Or, it might also be a matter of living to the fullest of what exactly? I guess I either had filled up the blank with "enjoyment", or somewhere in my decision making I was too careless to spot a difference and just went forth with what I thought was what I thought which was good. And as I keep doing it over and over again eventually it becomes automatic, and the next time I won't have to even think before I act. I just do it when I felt it......
"What gets us into trouble is not what we don't know, but what we think we know that just ain't so."
12:26 AM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I belief everyone was given a fair chance of endeavour to become a superhero/someone special from where they've been placed in life, it's just only who'd be curious to find the purpose of the things lying around them and discover its uses. Poor to rich. I don't have to force anyone to do anything, praise to those who were curious of their life and began a search operation. And I consider real enjoyment in life as personal evolution. Intelligence is at stake of one's choices. Country laws can do nothing to me, nor to anyone as a matter of deeper fact. :)
9:41 PM
Friday, November 7, 2008
so I took some photos...
genuine asian eyes.
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ok.. thad be all for now.. bye everyone! NIGHTS~
4:15 AM
12:59 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
I kiised a guy. (inspiration from tonight's encounter!)
This was never the way I planned
not my thingy.
I got so brave to cruise and then,
lost my dignity.
It's not what, I'm used to
just wanna try him on.
I'm curious for homos
he got my attention~
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
taste of his nicotine lips.
I kissed a guy and I lost it,
I hope my shepherd don't mind it.
It was enticed, I found my vice.
I wish that tonight will happen twice.
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
to my bus stop!
Hell no I do not know his name,
it must be cheena.
Cos of the typicality
of his tiny weewee.
It's not what, good sheeps do,
not how they should behave.
I peeped and I'm in pain,
from, the sight of his "thing"~
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
taste of his nicotine lips.
I kissed a guy and I lost it,
I hope my shepherd don't mind it.
It was enticed, I found my vice.
I wish that tonight will happen twice.
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
to my bus stop!
As chaps we are so miserable.
Hot bod, great looks so touchable.
Hard to resist by tikopeks,
Too good to deny it.
Ain't no big deal, I'm innocent~
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
taste of his nicotine lips.
I kissed a guy and I lost it,
I hope my shepherd don't mind it.
It was enticed, I found my vice.
I wish that tonight will happen twice.
I kissed the guy who followed me tonight,
to my bus stop but never manage to get up the same bus as I did! ~phew*
thankyou thankyou that was I kiised a guy laszlo edition.
and yes, i was followed by a gay tonight from katong mall's toilet to parkway busstop.
he obliviously look at me throughout. X_X
11:22 PM
