he outwardly uses all his five senses.
he inwardly thinks and feels.
he uses his words in whom he delights and understand as would his children, for great causes.
what a contemplator is doing now?
he tussles with his thoughts.
he searches with his feelings.
he relates with his hands.
he safaris with his legs.
he stretches with his eyes.
he receives with his ears.
what a contemplator fails at?
he misses out the time to truely live for the moment.
he can't train his words up to wield greater power, though they're his best friends, like fathering a child but has to search for new ones to replace those that are less.
he couldn't socialize well.
what is the destiny of a contemplator?
he spends too much time alone polishing, though godlike in production but joy-killing every minute his contemplative personality reigns.
he is doomed to be lonely if he doesn't change.
who could be a contemplator?
one who would talk this much to bring you a point that is:
Me Newell Loo is a contemplator.
3:53 AM 
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
is the meaning in mind, then out came words, then out came practice, then out came art.
But people nowadays do
first the practice, to fulfill the words they heard, name it their art, then find the meaning in their heads.
Yeah.
The only problem to that is by the time the meaning gets into their minds its truth had been perverted.
SoWelcome to the Gen Y, where most blinded by TV have no-idea.
3:40 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
but you must be feeling like i'm forcing you.
however if you still choose not to,
i've got nothing to say as well.
you think you understood the way of this world already.
but stucked up in that cockiness of yours you refused to learn from those who returned from darkness.
you find no need to comprehend their experiences
and relied on your little techniques of tradition.
but you had no idea how their experiences had shaped their way of living life since then on.
and pushed the responsibility of changing their way to them alone.
what burden are you sharing with your children?
to them the greatest hardship is to adapt and adopt this kind of ideal joyful life that you have.
but you refused to help when you let them stand alone.
you refused to help when you didn't proach further.
you refused to help when you didn't remember their confessions.
you refused to help when you are only listening to your own voice of knowledge.
you refused to help when you refused to change yourself for someone changed unwillingly by his environment.
you are just going to change yourself for another person. how can that compare to being forcefully changed by an environment even though his heart doesn't wants to but he knows he had to for the sake of survival?
don't you love the person enough to change yourself? or didn't you claimed to, at least.
you are right, these wounds still have not been healed up.
can you even see that you are contradicting yourself?
you seem to have real full understanding of the priviledge you have of requesting for forgiveness for your wrongs.
you really jolly live in luxury of asking for full forgiveness all the time don't you?
but, though you know you will have to face the (many) consequences of your mistakes, you've forgotten just how much you had made.
BUT CAN YOU SEE THEM HAPPENING ON ANYBODY?<BR>
aren't you aren't aware.
I entered this community for a change your representative promised me to have.
and I... You guys really have no idea don't you? i can see those blur expressions on your faces.
...
I think I'm goin-
I'm leaving this place that I can't live in. - Just human instinct.<BR>
9:43 PM
and when he really did his words the abstractness still imply?
3:27 AM
yet i couldn't be when Laughter remains in my life.
a path of breaking of ties to be stronger I must walk only alone.
I'm breaking off ties for me to be stronger.
I guess I say a bye.
2:19 AM
Friday, December 26, 2008
I want to walk into the house of a serial killer and have a personal contact with him. Then sleep on his lap, and maybe he will know that he has been accompanied by someone.
I also wish that I can travel back in time and save the poets and poetess that are attempting suicide at their homes.
12:11 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
11:18 PM
the key to success yielding difference is
the custodian's proactivity.
and it all begins with the mind, upholding that will of his heart, and then chooses to stand up and get moving.
you are only trying your bestest when you are first proactive in your mind of the matter, NOT when you've gave your all during your one or two attempts at the point of time of the situation.
how can i(or many) know that you are not giving your best?
Your silence - when you aren't making much noise.
When your behavior does not reflect that kind of enthusiasm of your mind when it's being proactive.
It's about how truly desperate you are, not just how desperate you are.
why did the group wait till now for a minor boost in growth.
what exactly was the "best" that a leader and follower gave.
don't give benefit of doubt. think logically.
when you're 24/7 in urgency, with your desire you will experience pain. but with that pain God will bless for your efforts and your efforts will pay off. - even pre-believers had experienced such blessings. how more should you accomplish when you have known the greatest helper in the world? look at geniuses of arts and sciences in history. why did all of them have something common, that is, a thing that they produce wows the great majority of people? even though most of them are not Christians, why they had the power to yield such great influence? it is because faithfully every day and night, and every second of their lives they honour the will of their hearts in which they've set on some point of time in their lives. yet they need not have to learn the existence of "Honour" beforehand to be really doing it to their wills. - this is a result of their proactivity. These great achievers simply focused on making sure they can achieve it.
what could you contribute if you had that influence?
you, who claim from your mouths you want to save the world from darkness.
it starts with, really, saying Yes.
when you finally grasp that unique heart for something(for a group, a person, a thing) you want to pursue of, you can trust on me or all the heavens and the earth, the mountains and plains, the skies and the oceans that, creative solutions for the big obstacle of yours will be found by You. God will bless, as He said he will. You just need to be aware. (you think you know this but you don't. you try hard to comprehend but you can never understand when you don't try it.)
being a candel is a choice.
being an artist is a choice.
being a creator in a land of Impossible is a choice.
The world has been supplied with a faith of a shepherd, and is joined by arts and logic and love and second chance and a smile. Stop being skeptical.
9:52 PM
Our Hope Endures - Natalie Grant
9:50 PM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
3:27 AM
Monday, December 22, 2008
you know no art in styles, yet you want to pursue an image for others to see.
but who are you really?
ignorant of self and,
plain. - as you will see.
i went to cut my hair today at tony&guy academy.
it turned out disappointing.
me hair officially look homosexual.
oh well, but i have a lucky scalp. hopefully the look will be better after my hair swiftly grows out.
11:57 PM
1:35 AM
i feel the adrenaline moving through my veins.
had countless glasses of wine tonight
happy wedding to my 4th uncle! (thou we're not that close :)
actually i forgotten what i wanted to blog abt tonight's dinner.
erm, i can only rmb that the food is nice.
and my aunt's mum tried to recommend her daughter to my mum and to me lol.
she said she's got big eyes and long hair.
i love the long hair part. :)
oh ya! i rmbed what i wanted to say.
my mum and i reached there earlier than we should. so while i was stoning at my table, a china waitress came over and ask me "what are you doing?"
a bit stunned by the question she asks, but still i thought of replying to her in chinese for her convinience's sake, so i started translating my english-based thoughts to chinese in my mind(my cheena sucks like a vacuum cleaner) and just when i was about to reply her she said:
"Orange?
Spirte?
Pepsi?"
LOL.
i then realised she wanted to ask me what do i want to drink.
i smiled and shook my head. :)
and then for a second time she, went and asked a granny what would she want to drink(i hope she said correctly this time), the granny replied to her in hokkien. and she was confused and stunned.
hahahaha....
lost in communication..
HYATT HOTEL!.
when i came back home on bus 5, i witness an accident site. it was WOAH.
a (red) taxi was literally "dived" 45degrees into the top of another car, and the taxi stays levitated from the ground.
HOW CAN THE TAXI EVEN LEAVE ITS WHEELS FROM THE ROAD IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!
it feels like a sci-fi movie becoming reality.
it occured in the highway near eunos/kaki bukit there. the taxi is facing 90 degrees clockwise from the direction of traffic. the car underneath was badly squashed and smashed. there were 3 tow trucks at the scene.
woah.
D:<
but cool.
hope there's no casualties.
12:11 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
you can't just keep receiving love from God and then love someone back.
you yourselves gotta have an understanding of the nature of love itself,
and the next time love out of your own freewill.
there's nothing wrong getting inspired by God's love to you for you to love another.
because there are many different kinds of people with different sensitivity,
and to those that pursue truth, they are able to tell from your actions,
was that dutiful or private.
there are times only creative solutions can solve the problem.
a second-hand love can't come up with anything new but the same methods.
but an original love desperately comes up with creative solutions to save the dying.
3:38 PM
2:40 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
2:23 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
11:36 PM
I don't want to say.., bu-, unbelievably.
2:06 AM
Monday, December 15, 2008
10:13 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Dream On by Christian Falk feat. Robyn
Dream On (2008 Radio Edit - Original Mix) - Christian Falk Feat. Robyn
11:07 PM
have i really been trying my hardest or just doing according to passion?
someone great said: if results equate to one's efforts then this world would be fair.
maybe there is a difference between hardest,
and bestest.
there's a contradiction with my belief. do your bestest, and you will be. i enjoy the light being in my the bestestness.
a little slumber into humanitarianship and poverty strike me, HARD.
it could be my mind is just too in-filth-ed with emotion.
led me to a stage where i couldn't care lesser;
like just dumping the corpse on the sink and then leave.
...i hear your laughter again.
This is the precursory Part unknown to my breakdown.
10:35 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I cant fully express myself.
don't make me let out my full wrath.
12:06 AM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
A new day is given to me.
I start by doing my same routine
packed my stuff and went to school.
At school I go to my seat
rendezvous with my friends,
we helped each other quite a bit.
Through our interaction there was bliss
and bliss I had laughed, followed through, and worked.
But I am sorry.
That I laughed today.
I am sorry.
That I followed my friends.
and I am sorry.
That I gave my focus to something else.
Because I know when I laugh,
your heart is aching.
When I followed them,
you were left alone.
When I focused on work,
you were lacking a ear, a hand, or a shoulder.
And then I came in to class tonight
and see that you aren't there
an instant sense drop in atmosphere aroused from within.
I could only ponder..
Where art thou now.
Yet I know where you might be.
in the bottomost of deepest oceans
deepest of an abyss deprived of light
or at the centermost of space
wondering where you belong.
You need a touch.
Yet your physical location became the first concern of my instinct instead
but really where thou art
who else can give the better description
than you alone?
The cruelty of
the full suffering of
the judgement that has
imposed on to you
this that only a solo soul can bear.
Beyond comprehension.
Beyond imagination.
Beyond knowledge.
Beyond skeptically accused exaggeration.
Beyond guessing.
But also beyond your belief.
Also beyond your faith.
But my friend,
time can heal, though it can't erase.
So yet I could laugh today!
What adolescence!
In my shame in me I find disgust.
As I retire my day
I feel I'm a failure of custodianship of time.
I failed (which)whom is the source and giver of the biggest meanings of life
Relationships.
I know that I can only sleep now
and wake up later.
But some..one... is.. different...
I am sorry I had only done this much.
I am sorry I had only only done this much,
my friend.
12:31 AM
Monday, December 1, 2008
if death doesn't pass with a meaning
then what would death be for?
likewise in the opposite,
if life doesn't take place with a meaning, and a purpose, and a reason
then what would life be for?
Why you are still alive today.
Is because you have a role.
5:36 PM
4:33 PM
L-O-
L-O-
L-O-
L-O-C-K
L-O-
L-O-
L-O-
L-O-C-K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
up.
i am currently locked up at home now unable to go to school because my mum accidentally took my keys along with hers.
(weee!) (yay!) (no school!) and it's (not my fault!) :D
anyway, in all seriousness I should be in now, as i am going to post an entry i wanted to post yesterday night, but just didnt find the time to.
recent nights I felt someone staring at me from outside my window. outside is just trees btw. i felt it again ytd night and i decided to search carefully this time. and then, well the whole sensing part might highly be just my mind. but anyways check out what i saw when i peered into the trees:
hmmms, can you see anything?
come'on imagine with me, as i turn my head to my window and scan the entire scene infront of me on 2am.
here's a brighter version.. not sure if it helps..
a face glancing back at me.
the features of the eyes, brows and moustache are made of leaves.
lol.., i was just scanning across the landscape view through my window...
3:35 PM
