Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People (but don't say their name) :
1. I want you, still (so you might know it's you).
2. AMANDA MA I WAS ON MC, JUST THAT I FORGOT TO SUBMIT IT TO G.O.!
3. Get lost you all, so you can come to me :)
4. I understand what you've gone through, it was the same main place, just maybe a slightly different climate at then.
5. I deserve to be on this list!
6. Look no more. Observe me. Analyze me. Pick me. Accept me as your apprentice.
7. Recognize my psyche as true the reason why it got in my head in the first place.
8. Don't do this.
9. I don't know why you came into my head, but I'm not even interested to say anything to you but since I'm typing, read this CLEARLY: you are disgusting to me, mainly because your cognition is pathetic. I'm sorry.
10. Spirit me away. If I'm destined to be a celibate.
Nine things about myself :
1. unsure of my state
2. physically insubstantial
3. contradicted by the callings from opposing sides.
4. extrasensory
5. lost my mind map
6. stubborn, in both good and bad ways
7. just one flaw in my defense: to feel sadness
8. upset, fearful, un-hopeful of the change that occurred in me.
9. thorough
Eight ways to win my heart :
1. Be sad. And pitiful.
2. A redeemed you. Having a reason to your commonly disliked acts.
3. Cried some rivers.
4. Be as forward-going as a flying bird.
5. Talent in empathizing.
6. Dare to let go to discover more about your genuineness.
7. Ability for appreciation.
8. Strong ability to envisage.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot :
1. Blank.
2. What do I have to change.
3. My computer is a screen, it is showing something white, some smaller parts black.
4. Where's my energy source.
5. "uhh..I need to be.... uh..... something. ss..I forgot for now, I need to go ..uh.. think again. that's right.. that's that; that's right.. uhh..I need to be...."
6. How did all this happen
7. Bolster is the most faithful.
Six things I do before I fall asleep :
1. Get out from my computer chair
2. turn the fan's direction to my bed
3. let my mind be automatic
4. subconsciously allow and un-allow thoughts to be used as ingredients for my dream(s) later.
5. send command to my body to produce emotion to stimulate myself to sleep.
6. pray my thanks in neverthelessness.
Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) :
1.
2.
3.
4.
5. what can you be to mean a lot for my heart?
Four things your wearing right now :
1. nil
2. nil
3. psychic aura
4. shorts.
Three songs that you listen to often :
1. To The Ends Of The Earth - Hillsong
2. Untitled - Simple Plan
3. Canon in D Major - Pachelbel
Two things you want to do before you die :
1. Hopefully, I can sing my song of how wrong our skeptic beliefs are.
2. Impact.
One confession :
1. Is there any sentence, that can say it all? I don't think so. No amount of words can grasp the simplicity of the simplest things, which is why sometimes people say it best when they say nothing at all, but despite that occasionally I still keep talking and writing, hoping at least someone can get the simple information of what I say. Alright, it's the end.
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