A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret to his success:
Never leave that to tomorrow which you can do today.
This is the man who discovered electricity.
He think more of us would listen to what he had to say.
I don't know why we put things off but I guess it has a lot to do with fear:
-Fear of Failure
-Fear of Pain
-Fear of Rejection
Sometimes the fear is just the making of a decision.
Because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?
But the early bird catches the worm.
A stitch in time saves nine.
He who hesitates is lost.
We can't pretend we haven't been told.
We've all heard the prophets,
heard the philosophers,
heard our grandparents warning us about waste of time...
Heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day...
Still, sometimes...we have to see for ourselves.
We have to make our own mistakes.
We have to learn our own lessons.
We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug, until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant.
That knowing..
is better than wondering.
That waking..
is better than sleeping.
And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake,
beats the hell outta never trying.
3:51 AM 
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I AM SO NOT DOING THIS WITH MY HOLIDAYS.
11:24 PM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
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3:38 PM
love the weird people.
for they tried protecting the happiness in this world.
no one can ever know how much I love the show Grey's Anatomy.
2:57 PM
When this world is so hostile, constantly attacking you of the things you wanna keep.
Be it things you can touch,
or things you can't see.
Don't wonder why people go crazy.
Wonder why they don't.
'Cos in the face of all-we-can-lose in a day,
wonder what the hell it is...
that makes us hold it all together.
Not a Grey's Anatomy quote.
2:41 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
They follow us home,
changes our lives,
trauma messes everybody up,
but,
maybe that's the point.
All the pain, and the fear, and the crap...
Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward,
it's what pushes us...
maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.
Grey's Anatomy.
6:25 PM
For I've been locked up at home by my mum who took my keys along with hers to work by accident for the second or third time.
HA.
The loss I have to bear this time is not being able to fellowship with my friend for lunch.
Just a recap the last this happened I wasn't able to go to school and thank God it wasn't submission day.
So this is why I thank God for the Internet, to keep me entertained while I'm sentenced to home imprisonment!
3:00 PM
Doesn't land itself well to the making of friends.
Maybe because life and mortality...,
are in our faces all the time.
Maybe because in staring down death everyday...,
we're forced to know that life, every minute, is borrowed time.
And each person we let ourselves care about...
is just one more loss... somewhere down the line...
For this reason,
I know some doctors who just don't bother making friends at all.
But the rest of us,
we make it our job to move that line.
To push each loss... as far away as we can...
A beautiful phrase from Grey's Anatomy.
3:02 AM
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
1) Changing of course to Psychology Studies.
2) Mother & son issues.
About no. 1)
Due to careperson-student confidentiality, I can't reveal much about what was said because it includes personal information about both her and me. But I can say that she had shed more light to my path by reassuring me on certain things that I wasn't sure if I have them. Some of them include unhappiness in going to school to attend classes, and another would be having the flair in drawing therefore a capable animation student to-be. (Although I chose to major in video.) She was sincere, and she said words true to her heart. She was understanding and reasonably positive all the time if I could say that. It wasn't just optimism but she really believed it from the bottom of her heart. She told me what to do, and I just wished that I wouldn't miss out any of them. The list goes as so:
- check for any changes in payment of school fees. [done]
- research and be informed about what the course teaches, not just know what Psychology is. [doing]
- fish out as many people from that course and talk to them. [doing (but need help)]
- be prepared when I'm meeting the course manager. [far from done]
About no. 2)
Same thing here, I can't reveal much because of the same reason. Nevertheless the main point she made was that my mother really cares for me. I don't want to be anyone but someone who keeps an open mind about that - a respect to the law of possibility. She said I am very blessed because I actually got the green light from my mother about changing my course. This is the biggest obstacle for any student she said. And she said that was because my mother really believe I will do my best in where I am. She told me my mum went looking for her enquiring and confessing personal things and the fact that she attended the parents' night shows that I'm really important to her. There are five love languages she said, and she told me to use my knowledge of them to my advantage. She suspects that both my mum and I are deprived because we don't know about love languages and thus haven't been "feeding" each other anything. I then confessed to my careperson that all the while I knew I'm giving the vibes to my mum that I don't want her around, and I did nothing to change that because it is indeed my time now as a teenager to hurt back her, for all the hurts she used to give me. I told her what were the vibes, and unpleasant(anti-humanity) confirmations, that my mother gave me when I was still young and innocent. My careperson understands. Timeout, before I further become a narrator narrating what happened. Ok, but anyway I just don't know how to put it, but I'm almost done. My careperson said she understands that hurt people hurt people. And that it's impossible to alter that fact. She then asked me do I still love my mother and I couldn't answer her. This was when she nods and says "Newell, your mum really, really cares for you" and she teared.
Should I too, cry?
11:54 PM
Friday, June 5, 2009
And we leave it alone.
And everything that happens in between?
We owe it to ourselves to find a little company.
We need help, we need support.
Otherwise we're in it by ourselves...
Strangers...
Cut off from each other.
And we forget...
Just how connected we all are.
So instead, we choose love...
We choose life...
And for a moment...
We feel just a little less alone.
- Grey's Anatomy.
2:05 PM
