sometimes when I think I want to kill...but I cannot love when unless I think of others...most of the time I just stay within a neutral zone. others won't think much of me that way.
I harbor true hatred and compassion at different times each, I asked myself but I don't really understand how those two can coexist in me.. I just might have been blocking God's love out of me for a long time. That might explain why I can't love unconditionally.
I just can never expect fully the amazing things that the brain could do can I?
PS., this is the case of expectation that is not a forced assumption. More of like a subconscious one.
Goodnight.